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• « Minor report » par David Tuller dans Salon.com le 22 juillet 2002.
  • Un ouvrier d'entretien d'avion décrit sa première expérience à treize ans avec un homme d'environ 30 ans qui l'avait engagé à faire un travail de triage. Après l'avoir invité à l'intérieur et lui avoir montré des photos des hommes de lutte, l'homme « a commencé à frotter mon entre-jambes, et je suis devenu nerveux et à la fois très excité par lui.» Il a ensuite rechercher de façon significative d'autres hommes plus âgés. « Je n'ai jamais eu l'impression d'être utilisé. Je le voulais vraiment, et excepté pour la première fois, je me suis toujours senti comme l'agresseur. »
  • Le romancier Edmund White, réputé gay, parle de ramasser les hommes sur les plages de Chicago et dans les toilettes publiques à partir de l'âge de 13 ou 14 ans. «« Je ne pensais qu'au sexe, complètement passionné et éperdu par le désir. ... Le premier homme était un bel architecte, qui avait effectivement des enfants plus âgés que moi. J'étais absolument fasciné par lui, et je l'ai séduis. Je l'ai suivi à sa voiture, ai marché droit vers lui et ai commencé à parler avec lui. Ma mère était loin et je disais : « Viens à mon appartement.» Et il a été fantastique. »»
  • Dans un essai sur les rapports sexuels entre adolescents et adultes, David Tuller parle de son propre désire à l'âge de 15 ans « vouloir être un homosexuel tourmenté." En voyant le film Summer of '42, dans lequel une jeune veuve « tire Hermie dans ses bras et, dans sa douleur, dans son lit », il dit : « J'ai pleuré pendant que je regardais, ... parce que j'aspirais tellement pour les moments tendres que Hermie trouva. »
  • Un professionnel de la santé, gay, dans sa cinquantaine, explique comment la relation, qu'il a poursuivie avec un ami de la famille d'une vingtaine d'année, l'a aidé à apprendre à l'âge de quinze ans que les hommes peuvent prendre soin les uns des autres. « Il était clair que chacun de nous deux en ressentait assurément du bien. ... D'une certaine manière, c'était un véritable sauveteur, car il m'a fait sentir que l'amour et l'affection et la proximité et le sexe serait possible dans ma vie. ... Quand nous étions ensemble, c'était comme un petit oasis où nous pouvions être nous-mêmes. »
  • Un homme d'affaires, à Denver, raconte sa relation de deux ans, à partir de l'âge de quinze ans, avec son patron de 29 ans du restaurant où il travaillait. « C'était effrayant et vivifiant et je me sentais maladroit et inconfortable. Mais il était ludique et amusant et très doux. Je ne me suis jamais senti sous la contrainte. Aussi étranger qu'il était pour moi, je lui étais très ouvert. Ensuite, je me sentais bien, comme j'avais expérimenté quelque chose que je voulais depuis longtemps.» Parlant de la façon dont cela a affecté sa vie de l'époque, il dit : « Je n'étais plus un enfant incorfortable, en dehors de sa place. Je me suis senti apprécié pour mon homosexualité, au lieu d'être un déchet et d'en être moqué. Soudain, j'ai eu cette nouvelle confiance en moi. Je n'ai pas eu la haine de moi-même d'être gay. »
• Une longue et riche carrière de Ambar sur BoyChat en juillet 2005.

  Un homme raconte ses premières expériences sexuelles, notamment avec le père de son meilleur ami à l'âge de huit ans : « Il est devenu mon second très, très, très meilleur ami et ainsi a commencé une magnifique relation d'amour. J'adore toujours cet homme :-) »

• Lettre de John dans HFP Mailbag et les abus sexuels d'une victime par John Tate le 7 décembre 2004.

  Quelqu'un de 17 ans rapporte à propos de l'angoisse dans sa vie découlant de l'activité sexuelle avec son grand-père depuis l'âge de sept ans et attribut les pires aspects de l'attitude de la société à ce sujet : « Je pense que si ce genre de chose était tolérée, je ne me sentirais pas autant un putain d'aliéné, si haï, comme un enfant, je n'aurais pas été un banni. »

• Comptez moi DEDANS !!! :)) par siao sur BoyChat en juillet 2005.

  Un homme raconte sa première expérience sexuelle avec un adulte à l'âge de sept ans : « Soudainement l'amusement était « dedans »... dieu, quel était ce sentiment virevoltant qui allait tout à travers moi ??? » Il parle aussi de ses rencontres avec de nombreux autres hommes, en disant: « PAS UN SEUL NE M'A JAMAIS ABUSÉ ! J'étais libre de dire « OUI !!!! » et je savais aussi comment dire « non » si jamais il y avait peut-être quelque chose que je ne voulais pas. »

• Boy Crazy dans Boston Magazine en mais 2001
  • Célèbre poète Allen Ginsberg a commenté sur le scandale de la pédophilie en 1977 à Revere, Massachusetts, « J'ai eu des relations sexuelles quand j'avais 8 ans avec un homme à l'arrière du magasin de bonbons de mon grand-père à Revere, et je me suis avéré OK. »
  • L'auteur canadien des meilleurs ventes, James Dubro, avait 14 en 1961 quand il a commencé à avoir des rapports sexuels avec un étudiant en faculté de 22 ans qui reste son ami, 40 ans plus tard.
• Mon histoire : une histoire d'un garçon par Elf sur BoyChat en october 1998.

  Un homme du milieu de sa vingtaine raconte son histoire. Quand il avait neuf ou dix ans, il a répondu volontiers à la séduction d'un garçon voisin de 16 ou 17 ans. Ils avaient une passion amoureuse depuis plus d'un an jusqu'à ce qu'ils soient découverts et son père le batta sauvagement. La famille du garçon plus âgé disparru de la ville. Cet homme a écrit à propos de cette affaire que c'était la meilleure chose qui lui soit jamais arrivée et attribua ses profonds problèmes, au moment de l'écriture, à la façon dont il a été brutalement arraché de lui.

• « Spike » sur son site web

  Un garçon de 15 ans écrit à propos de son amant adulte : « Quand j'avais 10 ans, je me suis trouvé moi-même un mentor, un vieil homme merveilleux qui avait besoin de moi autant que j'avais besoin de lui. ... J a été la meilleure chose qui ne pourrait m'être jamais arrivée. Tout ce que je suis aujourd'hui je le dois à J. Lui et maman sont tous les deux des personnes instruites qui pensent que je dois me préparer moi-même à l'âge adulte en apprenant à apprendre, à penser par moi-même, et la façon de croire en moi ... Maman voit les résultats de mon association avec J, et elle ne pouvait pas être plus heureuse. »

• Hoby sur son site web

  Un garçon proclame son intérêt pour les hommes adultes et dit : « Vous devriez être capable d'aimer celui que vous voulez quand vous voulez et aussi longtemps que vous êtes tous deux heureux peu importe ce que les autres pensent. »

• Mes plaintes par David Alejandro en décembre 1996, sur son site web.

  Un garçon de 13 ans fait un plaidoyer pour la liberté sexuelle : « Je veux aimer et être aimé par qui je veux. Depuis les deux dernières années, j'ai un ami plus vieux. Je ne suis pas gay, j'aime les filles. Lui non, mais nous nous comprenons très bien l'un l'autre. C'est l'affaire de personne ce que nous faisons ou ne faisons pas. ... Arrêtez de me protéger, s'il vous plaît ! » (Note : La page de l'histoire du site indiquait qu'il avait 13 ans quand il a affiché cette page et 15 ans et demi en Juin 1999. Les pages d'index anglaises disaient qu'il habitait dans le « pays des Incas ».)

• Voor Een Verloren Soldaat (Pour un soldat perdu), nouvelle autobiographique par Rudi van Dantzig en 1986, dont le film a été fait en 1992

  Danseur de ballet acclamé et chorégraphe Rudi van Dantzig raconte l'histoire de sa brève romance à 12 ans avec un soldat canadien à la fin de la Seconde Guerre mondiale.

• Stefan sur son site web

  Quelqu'un de 12 ans, en Hollande, déclare : « Je vais vous parler de mon meilleur ami. Il a 28 ans et travaille à la maison. Je l'aime le plus au monde et il m'aime. Il a dit que je suis le garçon le plus mignon dans le monde. »

• Scott O'Hara, cité dans son article nécrologique à la conférence de presse de « Spirit of Stonewall », New York City le 24 juin 1994.

  L'éditeur du magazine vapeur dit : « Quand j'avais 12 ans et 13 ans, j'aurais rejoint NAMBLA dans la minute, parce que je savais que j'étais gay et je voulais sortir et me faire sauter, pas de lire « The Gay Mystique » toute ma vie; j'avais besoin de contacts personnels. »

• Ik Wilde Meer! (“Je veux plus !”) dans Martijn (PDF, 6 Mb) en décembre 1980, page 16-18, en Allemagne.

  Un homme marié parle de ses 6 années de relation avec un homme qui lui a montré l'art érotique et l'a masturbé. La relation devint platonique par la suite et le jeune homme était au lit de mort du plus âgé 37 ans plus tard.

• hommage à frank par mick15 sur BoyLover.net le 7 décembre 2005.

  Un adolescent décrit son amour, des relations sexuelles avec son mentor de football, récemment décédé.

• Je veux parler !!!!!!!! par « un garçon âgé de 15 ans » sur BoyChat en septembre 2000.

  Un garçon de 15 ans écrit à propos de son amant adulte : « Il est la meilleure chose qui ne me soit jamais arrivée. ... Je souhaite que ce monde ouvre simplement les yeux et voit que les relations de ce genre sont saines et bonnes pour les garçons de mon âge, mais, oui, seulement si le garçon veut la relation. »

• Il y a de la magie en dehors d'ici par Joshua Adam sur son site Internet.

  Un garçon de 13 ans dans le 10ème grade écrit au sujet du soutien affectif qu'il reçoit de son ami plus âgé, Angel, qui l'aide à surmonter la haine jetée sur lui par sa famille et l'école pour aimer d'autres garçons. Ange et Adam ne se sont jamais rencontrés en personne et ne prévoient pas de le faire. Leur relation est entièrement nonsexuelle, bien que ce soit certainement une histoire d'amour et de mentorat.

• Auteur Kirk Read

  Dans son livre de 2001, « How I Learned to Snap », Kirk Lire raconte son expérience sexuelle avec des adultes à partir de l'âge de 13 ans qui, selon lui, lui a sauvé la vie. « Le sexe intergenerational m'a sauvé la vie », « La culture américaine n'est qu'un cadre de référence pour : le sexe avec des mineurs est un abus. Je ne nie pas que la violence se produit, mais cette question devrait être abordée au cas par cas. Une approche globale qui criminalise tous les rapports sexuels entre adultes et mineurs sape le fait que pour de nombreux jeunes homosexuels, des relations sexuelles avec un adulte peut être une belle expérience qui change la vie. Ça l'a été pour moi », « J'ai sollicité des rapports sexuels avec des hommes plus âgés, maintes fois, étant adolescent. J'ai tâtonné des rencontres sexuelles avec d'autres enfants étant pré-adolescent, mais ils m'ont toujours laissé insatisfait. Aucun de nous ne savait ce que nous faisions, et notre honte et notre peur submergaient toute la joie de la découverte » (pp.57-59) Revu par NAMbLA.

• Shane sur son site web

  Un garçon gay de 14 ans en Australie a déclaré : « J'ai un très bon ami adulte qui est au courant de ma sexualité, ... Steve n'a jamais tenté quoi que ce soit de sexuel avec moi, bien que je souhaite souvent qu'il voudrait. »

• Sous ma maison. Tente de couchage . Voisin de chambre par Linca sur BoyChat en juillet 2005.

  Un homme raconte ses premières expériences sexuelles, y compris avec un voisin adulte à 14 ans : « [Il] a fait avec moi ... ce qu'il a été désireux de faire avec moi depuis que j'ai 8 ans. Nous sommes des amis depuis ce jour. »

• Deux postes par hyacinth sur BoyChat : Mai 2002 [1] et Juillet 2005 [2]

  Un homme décrit ses expériences sexuelles d'enfance avec des adultes. La première fois était du sexe anal avec un moine bénédictin à 14 ans : "Je n'étais pas stupide, à 14 ans, je savais où j'étais ... Il était très gentil et très doux, et je l'aimais beaucoup." [1] Le suivant était un relation qui a duré un an et demi avec un homme et ses deux fils. [2]

• Lettres d'un garçon amoureux--Extrait des lettres et journaux intimes des garçons, édité par Jarod Benjamin, 1997.

  Un garçon de 14 ans a écrit une série de lettres d'amour, courtisant en vain un ami adulte pour une relation plus intime.

• Tout comme la Grèce ? - Un adolescent gay donne des rendez-vous à un septuagénaire, une interview de « John » : par Brandon K. Thorp en Mogenic, Juin 2006.

  Un homme de 22 ans parle d'un homme de 67 ans qu'il rencontra au musée où ils étaient tous les deux bénévoles lorsqu'il avait 13 ans. Une amitié se fonda sur des intérêts communs exceptionnels pour un tel couple. La relation a évolué vers le mentorat et éventuellement le romantisme, qui est devenu sexuel deux ans plus tard. Ils restaient parfois intimes pendant cinq ans tandis que l'adolescent commença également à explorer des relations avec des personnes de son âge. En se remémorant la mort de l'homme quand il avait 20 ans, il dit : « il a amélioré la qualité de ma jeunesse, et son influence va probablement améliorer la qualité de toute ma vie d'adulte. Et j'ai amélioré sa vieillesse. Nous avons tous les deux reçu quelque chose. »

• Aaron, sur son site web

  Un garçon de 15 ans parle de son amoureux adulte sur son site web.

• Des garçons parlent franchement de l'amour Homme/Garçon, NAMBLA, 1981.

  NAMBLA a publié un livre avec les premiers comptes-rendus de 29 garçons sur leurs relations avec des hommes plus âgés. Les titres incluent La meilleure chose qui ne me soit jamais arrivée par Greg, 16 ans, Ça ne devrait pas être un crime de faire l'amour par Bryan, 12 ans, Si ça n'était pas pour Mark je serais probablement mort aujourd'hui par Carl, 14 ans, J'ai besoin de mon amoureux par Tyrone, 16 ans, et C'était moi qui ai commencé par Frank, 15 ans.

• Le point de vue d'un garçon amoureux dans A propos des garçons et des Boylovers par Jarod Benjamin, 1997.

  Une étude de Jarod Benjamin en 1997 de la pédophilie mâle-mâle inclue une section qui comprend des rapports sur les relations pédophiles, du point de vue des garçons eux-mêmes. Il est également fait référence à 620 garçons dans les Garçons amoureux d'Edward Brongersma.

• Baseball, Garçons, un homme à propos des activités d'amour illégales

  Un garçon heureux participe à une relation sexuelle et affective avec un homme plus âgé en commençant à l'âge de 12 ans. « L'âge de Jesse est inférieur à la moitié de l'âge de John et va sur ses 15 ans en avril, mais le garçon n'est pas son fils. Jesse « est mon amant » dit John , « mais les sentiments sont réciproques, il s'agit d'une relation consensuelle. » John a rencontré Jesse (ce n'est pas son vrai nom), lorsque le garçon était sans-abri il y a trois ans. [...] D'après les propres mots de Jesse : « John me connaît, il est ici dans ma tête déjà, je veux dire, tout le long. Il est mon père, mon ami, mon meilleur ami, un frère, tout en un. Il est grand (spirituellement) », a-il dit en souriant en tchattant avec un ami sur l'ordinateur du bureau. [...] « Je lui ai donné de l'importance et lui ai dit comment je me sentais et ai offert de prendre soin de lui. C'est quand il a dit qu'il était amoureux de moi et ne voulait jamais partir, » dit John. »

• Lee

  Sexe gay à 8 ans / diverses relations illégales / tous consentants « Lee a 14 ans. Il a eu des rapports sexuels avec des garçons depuis l'âge de huit ans, et avec les hommes depuis qu'il a 12 ans. Lee a un sérieux problème. Il veut une relation stable et est parti récemment avec un gars dans le milieu de sa vingtaine, qu'il a rencontré au salon de coiffure. Mais aux yeux de la loi, le partenaire de Lee est un pédophile et Lee est une victime d'abus sur enfant. Ce n'est pas, cependant, la façon dont il voit Lee : « Je veux avoir un petit ami. C'est mon choix. Personne ne m'abuse. Pourquoi devrions-nous être traités comme des criminels ? ». Il s'agit d'un enjeu pour Lee parce qu'il préfère les relations avec les hommes plus âgés. « Je ne suis pas avec des gens de mon âge », déclare Lee. « Ils sont trop immatures. J'aime les hommes âgés dans la 20aine ou au début de leur 30aine. Ils sont plus expérimentés et sérieux. Avec eux, vous pouvez obtenir une relation plus intime qu'avec un adolescent ». »

• David

  Sexe gay à 13 ans avec un homme dans la moitié de sa 30aine. « [U]n jour il a commencé à me parler au sujet de tous les garçons qu'il avait eu, et .., nous avons finalement terminé dans la pièce suivante. Nous avons passé un bon temps. En fait, je pensais que c'était un peu drôle; à un point que j'ai même commencé à rire. Je ne sais pas pourquoi - je venais d'avoir cet étrange besoin de rire. [...] C'était tout aussi nouveau. C'était passionnant. [...] (Interviewer: Cela [votre relation] a tout l'air très rose ...) Oui, c'est vraiment, vraiment génial. »

• Garçon de 13/14 ans sans nom

  Affirme qu'il a consenti, mais d'autres le voyait très différemment ! [nom d'utilisateur: as@df.com, p / w: asdf] « Le jeune homme en question, qui avait 13 ans lorsque son contact avec ces pédophiles a commencé, affirme que les relations sexuelles qu'il a eues avec eux ont toutes été consensuelles. En d'autres termes, il affirme qu'il n'a pas été violée, et que, dans son esprit au moins, il n'y a pas d'abus. »

• Pat Kelly

  Âgé de 5 ans, il aida un jeune garçon, 17 ans, à se masturber; était reconnaissant de son invitation (Forum fermé. Pat a été le webmaster derrière le site humaniste rationnel LogicalReality.com et les forums associés. Il affirme avoir apprécié de se cacher dans un garage et de masturber l'autre garçon, un peu comme un écolier qui aiment être admis dans la salle des profs - le monde des adultes, avec lequel il était tellement fasciné).

• André et Dennis

  Éducateur dans sa relation avec un écolier du primaire. « En fait, ça a duré un bon moment avant que le côté sexuel de notre relation commença à prendre forme; je n'ai pas osé commencer avec ça en si peu de temps. André se sent un peu coupable envers la mère de Dennis qu'il n'ait jamais enseigné la sexualité. Il se demande si elle ne peut pas avoir compris, après tout, parce que de temps en temps elle a fait des remarques qui pourraient pointer sur ça. Elle sait que Dennis et André ont un contact physique l'un l'autre et s'embrassent. Fondamentalement, il souhaite en parler, mais, naturellement, ce n'est pas facile. Sur demande, Dennis avait une opinion claire: « Elle n'a pas besoin de savoir! » »

• "11-year-old faggot"

  Discussions à NAMbLA. Des garçons parlent. Ordre : Nambla, P. O. Box 174, Midtown Sta. New York, NY10018 « Ma première déclaration est que je veux dissiper l'image que l'enfant est un innocent petit chiot. Les enfants ont beaucoup de connaissances sur la vie, l'univers et tout et tout. Mais les adultes ont tendance à ne pas écouter leurs enfants. Ce syndrome de l'innocent chiot réprime les désirs affectifs, économiques, politiques, sexuels et sociaux de l'enfant. Les enfants ne sont pas pris au sérieux et sont attendus à se conformer à une société dans laquelle ils ne peuvent pas contester sa validité. Cela doit cesser ! [.. .] Un enfant est un être sexuel. Ainsi, les enfants devraient avoir le droit d'explorer tous les aspects de la sexualité qu'ils veulent engager. Pourquoi les parents, les politiciens, et la police (les 3 p) alimentent la culpabilité des enfants qui sont sexuellement actifs ? [...] Beaucoup de gens ont été détruits en raison de relations intergénérationnelles, les personnes qui pourraient offrir beaucoup au monde s'ils n'avaient pas été simplement persécutés pour être différents. Brûler les sorcières est un passe-temps qui regagne simplement en popularité aux États-Unis. »

• Johnny

  Sexe gay accepté maternellement à 12 ans « (Interviewer: Quels sont les aspects négatifs de votre contact avec Ferdinand ?) Tss ... Il n'y en a pas. [... Sauf] pour l'expliquer à ma famille, ou de conserver son orientation cachée de leur part. »

• Peter

  Heureux avec des contacts pédophiles à un âge précoce (environ 10 ans) « (Interviewer: Quels sont les aspects négatifs de votre contact avec Ferdinand ?) Je n'en ai pas. »

• Stephan

  Compte-rendu descriptif, encore, d'une autre relation acceptable, à l'âge de 11 ans. « Ferdinand est venu vraiment me chercher d'une façon fantastique. J'ai appris beaucoup de lui, j'ai eu de nombreuses expériences et j'ai fait beaucoup de choses avec Ferdinand. J'ai appris quelque chose sur la nature humaine de Ferdinand. Et d'autres choses importantes dans la société, la responsabilité, la façon de faire avec l'argent. Je ne fais pas encore très bien, vous savez, ça ne colle tout simplement pas avec moi. Mais vous savez, ce genre de chose. Les choses importantes dans la vie. Avant Ferdinand je ne connaissaient pas l'une de ces choses et à travers lui, je les ai découvert. Aussi, je le dis toujours, « Je n'ai pas eu une enfance jusqu'à ce que je rencontre Ferdinand. Ensuite, j'ai reçu mon enfance  ». Et c'est vraiment la façon dont ça s'est passé parce qu'avant ça j'avais tellement de problèmes. [...] (Interviewer: Quels sont les aspects négatifs de votre contact avec Ferdinand ?) Pas un seul ! C'est très facile à dire. Pas un seul.  »

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• Pluto

  Emotional need for sex with a boy, at 56, after enjoying the reverse long ago. Pluto's early childhood experience involved showering with a grown man, and enjoying sexual contact. At the time of the act, it would have most certainly been disapproved of, but there was no moral panic in place to rob him of his self-worth. "Yes, I did have sex with an adult when I was very young--10, 11, 12 years old--and I treasure and cherish the memories... [...] I was not hurt in any way by it. i only wish there had been more times when he fooled around with me."

• Thijs and Joop (in Theo Sandfort's Boys on their contacts with men)

  Befriended by a boylover at nine, and enjoying sex "(Interviewer: What do you find the unpleasant aspects of sex with Joop?) There aren't any. I don't know of any, at least. [...] (Interviewer: Can you say who starts it, when you have sex?) Either of us. Sometimes me, yeah, mostly me. But he, too, real often. [...] (Interviewer: What do you think your mother would feel about your having sex with Joop?) I guess she'd think it was dirty. She'd think a man doing that with a child wasn't normal, that you just shouldn't do it. That's what she'd say. (Interviewer: And how do you fell about her thinking that way?) Rotten stupid! Although I wouldn't tell her it was rotten stupid. I mean, what business is it of hers? It's my business what I do. [...] (Interviewer: How do you feel about your having sex with Joop?) It's just really nice. (Interviewer: It's no problem for you?) It's just like a man going to bed with a woman--I think it's exactly the same: nice. And the feelings and so on they have, I have too."

• Unnamed Indian Boy

  Newspaper article about M8 + M19 sex and the victim syndrome "Once I was about 15, I grew familiar with terms like paedophilia and child abuse and started to realise what I had been through. This too had a downside. I found myself in 'the victim syndrome'. I started using this incident as an excuse to endear myself to people and constantly looked at myself as victimised in relationships and emotional circumstances. This persists even today but I try to rid myself of this misery."

• Sateryn

  Got a 'kick' out of illegal sex play with adults, at five, but disliked the following investigation "you know the most traumatic part about being molested as a child? sitting in a room with your parents and a therapist staring at you, forcing you to take naked cloth dolls and use them to put on a puppet show to show the adults what happened to you. the physical act of it? the molestation itself? hell, it was interesting... i was 5, it was something new, and i lucked out in that it wasn't violent, just people getting their rocks off - and quite frankly i got a kick out of it, at the time."

• IIDB

  Another member comments about their indifference, and expands later on. "I remember one incident when I was 9 or so and my uncles were 20 and 21. They brought me and a cousin who's about my age to their room and we engaged in oral sex. It was a one-time thing, but I didn't repress the memory, felt ashamed by it, or otherwise damaged by it. We didn't talk about it though, and it doesn't come to mind often. Is that counted as abuse? I had no strong feelings about it then or now. [...] I don't claim that it didn't affect me then, but it affected me in the way sexual activities affect us at that age - that of guilt of doing something I was taught is wrong or shameful. It's the same feeling I got then after masturbation and sexual experimentation with my friends, male and female."

• Hangtwenty

  1950s boylove with an oversexed 12-year-old. "....The most intense affair happened between 1956 and 1958.... The boy, who was 12 when it started, not only told me that I was his 'best friend', but that I was his 'only friend'...! ....Since we both lived with our parents then, and both lived in the same apartment house, we were together alot... His intensity to be sexual with me was much stronger than mine was for him..!"

• Prominent British men on fagging in their public schools

  Article by the Guardian

• Gerald

  Convicted for loving sex with teenage boys, after they made unfortunate spousal choices.

• Dirk Tieleman

  A journalist claims that a slightly coercive relationship worked to his own benefit. "When I was thirteen, a boy of seventeen sexually used me for a period of time with slight coercion, but I never really felt bad about that. He jacked me off and forced me to jack him off, and at first I felt uncomfortable about that, but after a few times I began to enjoy it myself and the aspect of coercion trailed off. Off course, being a thirteen-year-old boy, I found it curious that I was doing such things with another boy, but I realize now that this first sexual experience has helped me approach girls - to whom I was far more attracted - confidently and without qualms later on. That first sexual experience with a boy was, to me, the perfect introduction to sexuality. [...] In the past years, since the Dutoux scandal, I've been hearing people say all the time that any form of sex with children would automatically lead to great disturbances and 'damage the innocent child's soul beyond repair', but I feel confident in stating with absolute certainty that I haven't suffered the least bit of damage from my first sexual experiences with that older boy - not as a child, and not now. On the contrary: I have always had a very normal and healthy sex life, perhaps even because of that first experience."

• Kevin B. Johnson's Boyfriend

  "The second boy [15/16?] described a sexual relationship with Johnson that began when the youth was a freshman in 2004 and continued until last month. He told police, "I am not a victim. I was a willing participant," according to the affidavit."

• Floyd Martinson in his book "Infant and Child Sexuality"

  Martinson quotes another's experience: "My first homosexual experience came at the age of five or six, when I would play with this boy who was at that time about sixteen. He would ask me if I wanted to go into his house for something to eat, like some cookies or something. Of course I would go. Next he would ask me if I would go into the bedroom with him. Upon entering the bedroom, he would undress and ask me to do the same. I would, probably out of fright. I distinctly remember his body being very hairy, so perhaps I underestimated his age. Anyway, after undressing, he would tell me to bend over and then he would insert his erect penis into my anal region and start thrusting back and forth. He would then stimulate my penis and want me to do the same to him. We also masturbated each other, with him reaching orgasm and myself only being stimulated. I also spent some time in oral-genital contact. I did find the whole experience quite pleasing and continued to engage in these activities for a week or two. Then, and I don't recall why, we suddenly stopped doing it completely."

• Bruce Rind

  Rind quotes the story of a relationship between in 13yo boy and his 22yo brother in a 2001 study. "Subject and adult brother often massaged each other. "This time, however, I got a little hard and then he noted I had grown so much since he last saw me naked. He asked me jokingly if he could suck my dick. I said 'yes' so we got off on each other. He did me and then I did him. He came all over me but I did not. This lasted a month until he headed back to work. I do miss him as a friend and a brother. Was nothing romantic." Subject added, "I liked it, ... felt good. I wanted to do it again and again. I already knew my brother was gay and that I was attracted to men so this did not prove or disprove that I was gay."

• Bruce Rind

  [B: 15, M: 27, Originally from Savin Williams, 1997] "[It was with] the mailman, honest to God! On and off for two years. The first time was when I came to the door to get a special delivery package in my sheer designer underwear, from American Male. I was changing to go back to school. He sprouted a boner, I got hard, he grabbed mine, I grabbed his, and we were off and running. Every day I'd come home for lunch; my mother worked. I had to be quick so he'd not get docked for late deliveries. He had a real thing for redheads like me. He was very forward, connected with me, and told me how hot I was. Talked about our backgrounds. It ended when he suddenly got transferred and contact became difficult. We visited each other and had sex, but it was hard and we agreed mutually because of the distance that it was better that we be friends and not lovers" (p. 172).

  [B: 12, M: 22 Originally from Savin Williams, 1997] It lasted 9 months with his science teacher. "It developed over time and was great. We became friends and I invited him over once when my parents weren't home. I practically had to force sex on him because he was afraid about losing his job. Ended when I went away for the summer and he wasn't a teacher at my school no more" (p. 163). "

  [B: 12, M: 35 Originally from Savin Williams, 1997] The man was a family friend; the sex was mutually initiated, oral, off and on for 10 years (a couple of times per month), and "physically great." It confused the subject that the man was married, yet was willing to have sex with him. "Eventually I fell in love with him; knew I was gay but did not broadcast this; I was curious because of the age difference. Mutual oral sex happened after he fondled me; it was the first orgasm I ever had."

  [B: 13, M: 38 Originally from Savin Williams, 1997] "Family friend. I initiated on a camping trip; we were in same tent at state park; oral sex to orgasm for both of us; several times during the night; incredibly erotic, tremendous release, very pleasurable. Not real close; didn't enjoy kissing. Afterwards scary because I enjoyed it so much. Not wanting to be near him on the trip because afraid others would notice. Once per month for the next 4 years that I initiated; never talked about it; sex was all it was. Wished I was straight so the attractions would go away, because the sexual gratification was so strong."

  [B: 14, M: 26, Originally from Savin Williams, 1997] "It was with a stranger; he initiated it; it involved oral and mutual masturbation, we did it 10 more times. I was excited, was loved and in love, got affection, but was not prepared for sex. It was not so l much that I wanted his affection; I was attracted to him. This relationship lasted a week then three months later we met again and we were sexual."

• Bruce Rind - "The Problem with Consensus Morality", Archives of Sexual Behavior, Vol. 31, No. 6, December 2002

"These are based on a sampling of interviews I recently conducted on individuals who learned about me from publicity surrounding my publications and contacted me to tell their stories. These cases, involving five men who had sex as boys around age 10 with men, dispute Schmidt’s claim that there can never be sexual consensus between prepubescents and adults. The cases are cross-national, coming from Australia, Canada, England, France, and the United States. The first three men are homosexual and the last two are heterosexual. All names have been altered to preserve confidentiality.

• Case 1. Nathan, a 45-year-old Brit, began being intensely curious about adult male genitalia when he was 8. At this age, in attempt to satisfy this curiosity, he surreptitiously went into the room of his household’s sleeping man servant and fondled him under his bed covers. By age 10, his curiosity had turned into sexual arousal. He unsuccessfully tried to solicit sex from men in locker rooms. At age 11, he met a neighbor man, whom he worked on over many visits in attempt to initiate sex. Eventually, he succeeded. In his many repeats with the man over the next 2 years, Nathan reported that hewas the "conductor" - he controlled the sexual interactions. While still a boy, he had several other sexual relations with men, all of which he viewed as very positive. He thinks the sex helped his sexual self-confidence: as he matured, he knew exactly what he wanted in sex, while his peers were still searching.

• Case 2. James, a 23-year-old Canadian, first felt sexually aroused by other males at age 6 and had his first sex at 8 with a peer. At 11, he befriended a neighbor man, towhom he gave many signals, hoping for sex to occur. Eventually, it did, which made him feel proud and closer to the man. Over the next 3 years, he visited the man regularly, often secretly to avoid the possibility of his parents ending the relationship. He saw the relationship as very positive and said it built his personality (e.g., greater self-confidence) and influenced many of his tastes (e.g., an appreciation for literature).

• Case 3. Daniel, a 33-year-old Frenchman, was physically affectionate with his father starting at age 6. By 8, he became sexually attracted to him. At 10, he initiated sexual fondling with him, which the father accepted. In the sexual relationship, which lasted 4 years, Daniel always initiated the sex. In retrospect, he cherished the intimacy and described the relationship as "beautiful, pure, security, confidence, and love." He said it built his sexual self-confidence.

• Case 4. At age 8, Dennis, a 21-year-old American, initiated sexual contact with a man friendly with his family, whom he suspected of being involved with his older brother. Sex occurred between them for the next 2 years. He said he usually initiated the encounters because he was always ready for sex. He described the relationship as the most positive he has ever had. He saw himself as having the upper hand, because he felt he had control over the man, who went to great lengths to fulfill his wishes. He felt that his adolescent and adult sexual relations went more smoothly because of the competence he got from these early experiences. Asked how a heterosexual male could have enjoyed homosexual relations, he answered that he was attracted to sex back then, not females or males per se.

• Case 5. John, a 22-year-old Australian, first realized his sexual arousal to girls at age 8. By 9, he felt lonely and was bullied by older boys, when he met a male neighbor in his late teens. They quickly became friends, and John spent a lot of time at his house. The young man eventually initiated masturbatory sex with him. John was at first apprehensive that otherswould find out, but became comfortable with the sex once he felt safe from this concern. The relationship lasted 3 years. He was proud to be seen with the older male, saw him as his protector, and saw the intimacy they had as the highlight of his life. Asked if the relationship was consenting, he said yes, because he wanted it, the young man wanted it, he loved the young man, so consent meant, "Yes, do it.""

• My Father and I

  Positive man-boy incest is interrupted by a mother. "My father molested me from the time I was two till I was 15. We would lie naked and he would play with my penis. Then he would give me oral sex. When I was old enough I then started sucking him too. He never hurt me or tried to have anal sex with me, even though I wanted him to. I had anal sex with him, a few times, once my father decided my penis was big enough. My father and I would plan things around the times where we could meet and make each other feel good. My mother found out and two months ago my father was sent to prison. What my father did to me was not rape, at all. He never hurt me. In fact, I looked forward to spending the time with him but my mother and the police don't seem to listen."

• William Percy

  Article "UMASS professor advocates pederasty" William Armstrong Percy III says that when he was 14, he seduced a male soldier while traveling on a train. "I never got enough sex with an older man. I don't see that I was harmed at all, except being deprived of not having more," said Percy. "I was already the aggressor."

• The male adolescent involved with a pederast becomes an adult

  Several accounts. "During his 11th year he began spending his spare time around a service station, where he became acquainted with a master mechanic who was then in his early 40s, married, and childless. [...] On a fishing trip, during a break on an island, they began talking about sex, which led to Denver's being fellated by the mechanic and to masturbation of the mechanic by Denver. For the next 5 years mutual fellatio occurred two or three times per week. Sexual activity with the mechanic ceased at about age 19, but a close relationship continued to exist until the mechanic's death. Denver is now 44 years of age. [...] Denver remarried and has been a valued mechanic with the same company for 20 years. He has a supervisory position and believes that his relationship with his mechanic friend helped him reach his goals. He says he would have approved a similar relationship for either of his sons, had he become aware of such a situation. He reports no desire to have sex with males since approximately age 20."

• Mark Foley

  Former American Republican, @13y/o. "The Rev. Anthony Mercieca, 72, described several encounters that he said Foley might perceive as sexually inappropriate, the Sarasota Herald-Tribune reported. They include massaging Foley while the boy was naked, skinny-dipping together at a secluded lake in Lake Worth and being nude in the same room on overnight trips. "Once maybe I touched him or so ... but I didn't, it's not something you call rape or penetration or anything like that," Mercieca told West Palm Beach station WPTV in a phone interview. "He seemed to like it, you know? So it was sort of more like a spontaneous thing". Mercieca said."

• Richard Dawkins

  From an article of his, that despite not being exactly sex - positive, goes as far as is 'acceptable' in playing down the impact of nonviolent, situational fondling of children by priests, whilst attacking the religious dogmas that sometimes cause so much shame after such encounters. "Being fondled by the Latin master in the Squash Court was a disagreeable sensation for a nine-year-old, a mixture of embarrassment and skin-crawling revulsion, but it was certainly not in the same league as being led to believe that I, or someone I knew, might go to everlasting fire. As soon as I could wriggle off his knee, I ran to tell my friends and we had a good laugh, our fellowship enhanced by the shared experience of the same sad pedophile. I do not believe that I, or they, suffered lasting, or even temporary damage from this disagreeable physical abuse of power. Given the Latin Master’s eventual suicide, maybe the damage was all on his side."

• Heinz Kohut

  Strozier, quoting the Psychologist on his relationship as a child: "I had this private tutor, who was a very important person in my life. He would take me to museums and swimming and concerts and we had endless intellectual conversations and played complicated intellectual games and played chess together" They also did sexual things together, which they both enjoyed, but Kohut felt the sex was more or less incidental. The important thing for him was the relationship. He said "I was an only child. So it was in some way psychologically life-saving for me. I was very fond of this fellow." Heinz was about 10 or 11 at the time. He describes his years with his tutor as being perhaps the happiest ones in his life."

• Pim Fortuyn

  Populist, anti - immigration, homosexual Politician from the Netherlands (deceased): "Fortuyn's first experience occurred when he was five years old. "The Dutch soldier asks if I want to see his tent. That's what I want. I like it and they all are sleeping on the ground in a sleeping-bag. I ask if it is hard and cold to sleep on the ground. Oh no, come here. Together we crawl in his sleeping-bag. The soldier asks my name and I ask his name. “He is called Arie and he asks if I like that name. Yes, I think that's a nice name and I lie beside him, nice and warm." Fortuyn then described a close sexual encounter with the soldier before leaving his sleeping-bag "to go and play outside." He added: "Can I come back tomorrow? Yes, tomorrow I may come back, says Arie." A few pages later, he describes another incident: "I went to the park for a walk, it was very silent and the sun was shining. On the bench sat a young fellow. I stood still, curious." Fortuyn relates another sexual encounter - this time in explicit detail. He concludes: "I was frightened and ran away to my home, to my mother. Excited, I ran into the room. My mother looked at me searchingly and asked what had happened. Nothing, of course. Watch out, little man, was the only thing she said. A glass of lemonade made me calm down. Yes, that was exciting." Most telling is his appraisal of these memories. "In chapter 1 about the 1950s, I wrote about my early sexual experiences, experiences that I see as an enrichment. Today, an experience like that in the park could easily lead to a complaint by parents to the police because of paedophilia, and the relevant young man would be in trouble. But why? "He didn't do me any harm. On the contrary, he showed me something that was incomprehensibly exciting and I could feel and touch it, but today we are ready to interfere with complete teams of professionals. By interfering in such an irritating and grown-up way in the world of children, we make an enormous problem of something that for a child is no problem at all and is only exciting.""

• Todd Nickerson

  A self-declared pedophile writes: "I did have a single sexual encounter with an adult when I was a child, though I would hardly describe it as traumatic or even unpleasant. My memory of being touched—and that’s all it amounted to—is that it was, at most, a little confusing since I didn’t really understand what was taking place. Not that I really minded, though. In fact, after it occurred, I went immediately to a relative and bragged to her about it."

• Boylover.net member on experiences as an 11-year-old boy

  "We piled back into the limo and it drove us to Toronto where we went to a stage play. I don’t remember what we saw because my head was still spinning about the fact that this attractive man, one who could have any female he wanted, was in love with me and was doing all this to make this night as special as he could. After the play, we headed for home. Limo drivers must have orders to ignore whatever they see going on in the back because ours got quite an eyeful. He was treated to the sight of an eleven-year-old boy and a nineteen-year-old man acting like boyfriends. We kissed, we petted, and we worked each other into an erotic frenzy, a frenzy for which there could only be one consummation."

• Boylover.net member on intercourse

  "I was 10 and it was with an Adult Friend. I did not, nor do I now think I was abused. (well not by my AF anyway) I liked it. We only ever did the things I wanted to do."

• Frans Gieles in an article of his

  "Craisatie (1998, among others page 117) describes a client who, as a child, had frequented a group, which in the book was called 'a child pornography ring'. As a child, he never had seen this as being abuse. Contrarily, he said that he'd gotten a lot of love, comradeship and care, which he did not get at home. Craisatie describes it as an example of successful treatment that his client ultimately abandoned his feeling of being loved and changed it into the feeling of being abused although this occurred only gradually and very late in the treatment process [...] Ehrenreich (2004) describes a man who for nineteen years was held in a closed clinic. He denied his offense, thus refused to speak about it, thus he did not cooperate, thus year after year his stay was renewed. Then, he changed tack: he 'acknowledged' his offense, he spoke about it, he did exactly what the therapists ordered, and said that he benefited from their treatment. This was the only way to be released. The man has been released. Then it turned out that is accusers had lied about everything they had said, under high pressure of the police: there never had been an offense."

• Boy in Dan Tsang (1981), "The age taboo". London: Gay Men's Press.

  "It's often not the man who goes out to seduce the boy, but the other way round. In my first experience, I did the seducing. . . . It is mostly the boys who go out in search of sexual satisfaction from men..."

• (Man?) on YouTube

  An extremely detailed account that was hindered by a voice concealer. Person had a positive relationship as youngster, and has met pedophiles.

• Carlock the Clown

  Some young children plead with authorities not to press charges against a clown who played with them sexually. "Surprisingly though, when asked by American embassy officials if they wanted their "Kuya Paul" charged in court for abusing them, all the three kids pleaded with the officials not to file a case against Carlock. "Please don't file a case against Kuya Paul. He is a good man, he is a good man," the kids said. "The kids told me that they loved the man so much because he was so good to them. They said they treated the man as their father. Paul gave them candies, lollipops," Karasuyama said." The clown was eventually tasered and killed by police.

• Terry George on "phone sex" with Michael Jackson

  According to George, Michael Jackson engaged him in "phone sex" at the age of 13: "I do not feel like a victim and I never did feel like a victim," he said. See directory for other articles.

• Phillip Distasio

  Imprisoned for life; a proud pedophile activist who had a relationship with an older man at 12. "Distasio describes himself as a second-generation pedophile: at the age of 12, he began a relationship with an older man, a swimming instructor named Charlie, at a boys club in Massachusetts. He says he's known about his proclivity since age 9. "To me, he says, “it is as valid as any other sexual orientation.""

• "Jay78" commenting on broadbandreports.com

  "Also, when I was about 6 years of age I was sexually "used" without coercion by an adult family member in ways that today would have but that person in prison. I almost forgot about that seemingly anecdotal incident and memory until I was reminded of it by the current hysteria over that kind of thing. Compared with the other things I experienced, that was not even worth thinking of, I would never hurt that person who did that and have a good relationship with that person today."

• "Howard Miller" as told to Titus Rivas, Ipce

  "We would zip our sleeping bags together and he would tickle and massage me all over. He would tell me dirty jokes while helping me with my homework and get me aroused. Then we would masturbate together. He satisfied me and then himself or we satisfied ourselves while watching each other. I thought that he was fascinating to look at and occasionally touch but not to satisfy. [...] I have only good feelings about what happened but am sad that most people will never be able to understand that. I also wish that we didn't have to worry about each other getting into trouble with the society over what happened. [...] Because I had such a positive experience as a child I believe that I can say with absolute certainty that sometimes such relationships can be very positive. Notice I don't say that they always will be, but heck more than 50% of marriages end in divorce. Most real child abuse occurs in families. Should then marriage be outlawed?"

• Loren Robb and Kolya - Bulletin

  A man tells of his loving relationship with a young native Arctic boy who he brought up in New Zealand.

• My Life - Youfoundme.org

  A very long testimony written by a person known to a contact of Newgon.com. "It was the end of that summer that I learned what real heartache felt like. Sex was never the dominating factor in my relationship with James. I wanted to fool around a lot more than he did but I just liked being with him. He knew so much about construction and getting things to work that it was like being at school all the time except it was fun. Like any kid who hears his dad tell the same joke all the time I got tired of hearing "plumbings easy boy, just remember shit flows down hill". What I really didn't want to hear was the day James told me we couldn't do the sex thing anymore. I don't recall his exact words but something to the effect "this just isn't right or this isn't normal". I was crushed. It (our friendship) seemed so normal and great to me that I didn't understand why he felt that way. My suffering didn't come from the hands of an abuser, my suffer came from the words of a man who feared for my wellbeing. I kept telling him I was okay with things and nothing needed to change. Change did come and even my begging wouldn't get him to monkey around with me. It happened once or twice after the big talk but it was never the same."

• Jessica L. Stanley (Researcher)

  "One man, at 14 years old, researched the location of gay bars and met a man with whom he had a few sexual encounters and with whom he has maintained a friendship for nearly 20 years."

• Curtis Dolezal (Researcher)

  "participant was 10 when he had sexual contact on 20 occasions over 3 months with a 25-year-old male neighbor. The events involved mutual masturbation and oral sex. The participant did not feel coerced or hurt and did not feel it was sexual abuse "because I seduced the neighbor."

• O'Carroll 1980, p.83-84

  "As a boy he became sexually mature at age twelve-and-a-half. "It was like the world was beginning to make sense, to take on purpose and meaning. [...] I regard my meeting with Mr. S., then aged twenty-six, as a critical turning point in my love life. Until then, sex was fun, felt good and left me only moderately guilty. Once I approached Mr.S. (Yes, I approached him) with my thirteen-year-old impatience for intimacy, he told no one, responded positively to my shaky advances (didn't even laught at me!) and simply embraced me. [...] Here was a masculine adult man (happily married even), who was interested in doing with me what I was already finding exciting with my boy-friends. And through this relationship a new dimension was added to my experience which has not occurred to me before - tenderness, affection and love. (...) This affection was, in its way, just as satisfying as the ecstatic orgasms that punctuated our days and nights together. I regard this man, this relationship as a turning point because I was never the same after knowing him for two years - I was more in tune with myself after that...".

• Sex met kinderen, pages 75-76. (Untranslated - Frits Bernard)

  A 25 year old man tells of a relationship struck up with a gay man when he was eight. They started having sex when he was ten, something that he enjoyed. The relationship lasts until he is 18.

• "En me vriendje houdt van mij: 23 verhalen uit het leven gegrepen", edited by Ben Füss and Gorrit Goslinga (Eindhoven: Stichting Uitgeverij NVSH, 1981)

  "We had just moved and that was how I met a nice man, as a 13-year-old. We talked a lot, in his room. He was very interested in art and possessed a lot of books with pictures of works of art and sculptry. I had little interest for this but did not want to hurt Dick's feelings. Only the pictures that showed nudity captured my interest. I also tried to hide this. [...]" This interest was noticed by Dick and it led to Dick briefly caressing the boy's genitals. Dick was very cautious and tried to end it immediately. The boy was very eager to have additional sexual experiences and finally persuaded Dick to allow him a visit. One thing led to another and the end result was a tender sexual relationship that lasted for about six years. After the war he re-established a life-long friendship with Dick, though without the sexual aspect. He was there when Dick died at age 83. He adds: "The value of this relationship is something I continue to cherish till this very day."

• "D. Carleton Gajdusek, Who Won Nobel for Work on Brain Disease, Is Dead at 85"

  "D. Carleton Gajdusek, a virologist who won the 1976 Nobel Prize in medicine for his work on the mysterious epidemics now known as prion diseases, died last week in Tromso, Norway. [...] In later life, Dr. Gajdusek became notorious when he was charged with molesting the many young boys he had adopted in New Guinea and Micronesia and brought to live with him in Maryland. He pleaded guilty to one charge, served a year in prison and left the United States in 1998, dividing his time between Paris, Amsterdam and Tromso. [...] He also remained unrepentant about the sexual relationships with his adopted sons, Dr. Klitzman said. He considered American law prudish and pointed out that sex with young men was normal in the cultures he studied and in the classic Greek societies at the foundation of Western civilization. His legal assistant, Dorrie Runman, who was previously married to one of his sons, John Runman, said Dr. Gajdusek’s survivors included “his adopted sons and daughters, including Yavine Borimaand Jesse Mororui-Gajdusek in the United States, and two nephews, Karl Lawrence Gajdusek and Mark Terry.” His children were legally adopted, Ms. Runman said. He put several through college and graduate or medical school. Some of them, now in their 50s, supported him during his legal troubles, while one sibling testified against him."

• Anon, in Berliner Zeitung (Translation)

  "Being 52 now, I got a relationship with a man at the age of 8-9 of whom I was told later that he was a paedophile. The relationship went on until I was about 14 years old and we were lucky that it remained undiscovered and free of police enquiries. Even today, so many years later, I remember my big friend with gratitude, as he made my coming out as a gay person later on – and many other things in my life - a lot easier for me. Since then, I have met numerous people who also had [consensual] sexual relationships with adults as children and teenagers and who are not ashamed of this. It is easy to understand why such people never get in touch with abuse counseling agencies, because they really don't need such help. That's how such centres get a completely one-sided view of so-called victims of abuse.".

• Paedophilia - What It Means To The Child by Frits Bernard, printed in PAN 3 (pp. 15 - 17)
  • "I was about 13 when I had my first paedophile experience. [...] The man who brought me into touch with homosexuality and whom I even loved physically was, and still is, one of my dearest friends. I remember what a wonderful feeling it was when he satisfied me for the first time. I was not troubled in the least by worries over having done 'perverted things', probably because I had no idea of what such things were. [...] The only trouble I have had over this was when I first told my fiancee about it."
  • "When I was seven I had contact with a man who was especially nice to me. He used to take me to his attic, sit me on his lap and play with me sexually. I thought it was very nice and enjoyed it. I always looked forward to Wednesday afternoons, the days when we saw each other. This went on for a long time. Later I had many contacts with other men, but never with boys my own age. One day I went with a waiter to his house. I was very interested and excited. We had unusually satisfying sex together. I must have been about 14. Back home I was restless and went to see him the very next day on my own initiative. We had intercourse about twenty times in the following period. [...] Now, after a good life, I can see these early contacts as very positive to my development. I would not like to have missed them and I do not envy the people who never had these opportunities."
  • "When I was about eight years old I got to know a man in the street who thought I played very nicely. He invited me out for a bicycle ride, and later to visit his home. [...] From him I recieved love, which actually I had never known (not, I mean, in the way I know it at present from my wife). [...] Later, when I was ten or eleven, we had sex with each other, something I always enjoyed."
  • Several further accounts involving slightly older minors are available in the article.